No instant forgiveness.
Good.
Real.
PART 62
Sienna apologized too.
“For stopping communication after the last voicemail.”
I shook my head.
“You tried six times.”
“I still stopped.”
“You were pregnant.”
“Hurt.”
“Scared.”
She nodded.
Then.
“But I also wanted you to come after me.”
I looked at her.
She continued.
“I thought if you loved me enough, you would somehow know.”
That hurt.
Because I had thought the same.
I expected her to somehow know I wanted her to stay.
Neither of us said what mattered directly enough.
That gap gave Margaret room.
PART 63
We started therapy.
Even though we were divorced.
Our therapist, Dr. Hannah Lee, asked.
“What do you want?”
I said.
“My family.”
Sienna said.
“I don’t know.”
That answer hurt.
But it was honest.
Dr. Lee nodded.
“Good.”
I almost laughed.
“How is that good?”
“Because certainty would probably be defensive right now.”
Fair.
PART 64
We worked slowly.
No dramatic reunion.
No hospital kiss.
No instant engagement.
We co-parented.
We talked.
We fought.
Better.
That mattered.
We learned to ask.
Not assume.
To verify.
Not interpret through third parties.
To tolerate discomfort.
Not outsource it.
PART 65
Oliver came home in October.
Tiny.
Healthy enough.
Still monitored.
I moved into a nearby townhouse.
Not Sienna’s apartment.
We decided separation during early parenting was safer emotionally.
I visited every day.
Night feeds.
Doctor appointments.
Baths.
Laundry.
Real fatherhood.
Not symbolic.
PART 66
The first night Oliver slept four hours straight, we thought something was wrong.
We checked his breathing seven times.
Then laughed.
Parenthood.
Terrifying.
Ordinary.
Beautiful.
PART 67
Margaret tried to contact me repeatedly before trial.
Letters.
Voicemails through attorneys.
One said.
I made mistakes because I loved you.
I hated that sentence.
Love had become her excuse for control.
I did not respond.
PART 68
Later she wrote.
I was afraid Sienna would take you away from the family.
There it was.
More honest.
Fear.
Possession.
She viewed marriage as competition.
My loyalty to Sienna reduced loyalty to her.
A child would shift inheritance too.
Emotion and money reinforced each other.