Sienna said.
“I don’t want to remarry because someone lied to us.”
I nodded.
“Neither do I.”
She looked surprised.
Then relieved.
Good.
I continued.
“I want to know whether we would choose each other now.”
That was different.
Choice.
Not restoration by default.
PART 58
Oliver stayed in NICU for seven weeks.
Those seven weeks became our strange second courtship.
Not romantic at first.
Hospital coffee.
Medical rounds.
Diaper changes through incubator openings.
Tiny weight gains celebrated like championships.
We learned each other again.
PART 59
I discovered Sienna had changed.
Pregnancy alone.
Divorce.
Fear.
Work.
She had become stronger.
More direct.
Less willing to tolerate my avoidance.
Good.
She discovered I had changed too.
Mostly because having my entire understanding of the past dismantled made arrogance difficult.
Also good.
PART 60
One evening, we sat beside Oliver.
Sienna said.
“You always defended your mother.”
I nodded.
“Yes.”
“Even when I told you she was cruel.”
“Yes.”
“Why?”
I thought.
Then answered honestly.
“Because admitting you were right meant admitting I had let her disrespect you.”
Sienna looked at me.
“That would have made you responsible.”
“Yes.”
“So you made me sensitive instead.”
I closed my eyes.
“Yes.”
That was painful.
Necessary.
PART 61
I apologized.
Not generally.
Specifically.
“For telling you that you imagined things.”
“For calling you dramatic.”
“For letting Margaret speak for me.”
“For letting her enter our marriage whenever conflict made me uncomfortable.”
Sienna cried.
Then said.
“Thank you.”