"The same caseworker," I said slowly.
"The same caseworker," Tessa confirmed. "A woman named Mrs. Halvorsen, who apparently still remembered Mom's case well enough to recognize the connection the moment my file crossed her desk again. She reached out to Mom quietly, off the books mostly, and gave her the choice. Come forward as my biological mother, or step back and let me be placed with strangers a second time."
"And she chose to bring you home," I said. "But never told me the truth."
"She never told me she'd tell you, either," Tessa said. "Not right away. I didn't find out I was her biological daughter until I was sixteen. She sat me down one night after you'd gone to bed and told me everything — why she'd given me up, how ashamed she'd always been of it, how terrified she was that if the truth ever came out, it would somehow make you feel less like her real daughter."
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"That's what the whispering was," I said, the years of jealous, confused resentment finally reorganizing themselves into something that actually made sense. "That night behind her door. You asking if I'd find out."
"I asked her constantly," Tessa said. "Every year or two, usually around your birthday, for some reason. It always felt wrong to me, keeping something that big from you. But she was terrified, Bridget. Not of you specifically. Of what it would mean about her — a scared seventeen-year-old who'd given away her own baby, and then, ten years later, quietly took her back without ever fully explaining why to the daughter she'd raised in between."
"She thought I'd think less of her," I said.
"She thought you'd think less of me," Tessa said. "That you'd see me differently, somehow, once you knew I wasn't just some girl she'd chosen to adopt out of kindness. That I was actually hers all along, and she'd hidden that for reasons that had nothing to do with either of us and everything to do with a scared seventeen-year-old in 1972."
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I sat with that for a long while, turning the old photograph over in my hands, studying my mother's young, frightened face for some trace of the woman I'd actually grown up with.