Then came the line that broke something open in me.
I stopped reading.
“You kept asking me who he was, but you never asked why I was scared.”
I lowered the page.
One memory came back.
Teagan had walked into the kitchen late one night.
“Mom, can I ask you something?”
I hadn’t looked up from my spot at the table.
“Mom, can I ask you something?”
“If this is about avoiding the father question again, I can’t do this tonight, Tee,” I said.
She stood there for a few seconds, then said, “Never mind.”
For ten years, I’d remembered that as Teagan shutting me out.
Now I wasn’t so sure.
I grabbed my phone and called Trudy.
I’d remembered that as Teagan shutting me out.
She answered on the fourth ring.
“You had this for ten years.”
“I know.”
“Don’t say that to me like it’s perfectly fine.”
She went quiet.
“Meet me,” I said.
“You had this for ten years.”
***
Trudy was waiting in a booth near the back of a small diner.
I put the photograph between us.
“You took care of Teagan?”
“For part of that day.”
“Then why did she give you the letter?”
“You took care of Teagan?”
“She was scared. She didn’t think she was going to die, Elizabeth. She was eighteen and about to give birth.”
That mattered. Teagan hadn’t predicted her death. She had simply been scared.
My girl.
Trudy continued.
“She told me if something went wrong and he didn’t come, I should give the letter to you.”
Teagan hadn’t predicted her death.
I tapped the photograph.
“Is this him?”
“I don’t know his name.”
“Then what do you know?”
Trudy swallowed.
“He came.”
“I don’t know his name.”
I froze.
“What?”
“After Teagan died, I saw a young man near the maternity floor asking for her.”
“You spoke to him?”
“No. I didn’t realize who he was until I looked at him properly. He matched Teagan’s description.”
My pulse started pounding.
“You spoke to him?”