At 7:00 in the evening, I opened Instagram.
I don’t know why I did it.
Maybe I needed to confirm what I already knew.
Maybe I’m a masochist.
There they were.
The first photo: Emily, radiant in her red dress, holding a glass of sparkling wine.
“Thanks to everyone for joining me on this special day.”
The second photo: my grandchildren with huge plates of breaded shrimp and French fries.
Michael had sauce on his chin.
Sarah was making a victory sign with her fingers.
The third photo: the whole table.
I counted nine people.
Daniel, Emily, the kids, Emily’s mom, her sister, her brother-in-law, and two other people I didn’t recognize—friends, probably.
Nine people celebrating, laughing, toasting.
And me eating instant soup in a kitchen I helped pay for.
I looked at the comments.
One hundred and eighty-four