The chaplain arrived with a worn Bible and kind eyes.
A nurse ducked out on her lunch break and returned with a plastic veil from a party store.
Ben insisted on the ridiculous black bow tie I had bought him months ago.
It sat crooked against his hospital pajamas.
I asked the hospital chaplain if he would marry us.
“A groom has standards,” he said, tugging at it.
“You look like a very sick penguin.”
“Marry me anyway.”
I did.
I stood beside his bed and promised things I had believed since I was a child.
My voice cracked on every vow.
“You look like a very sick penguin.”
The nurses in the doorway wiped their eyes on their sleeves.
When the chaplain pronounced us husband and wife, Ben pulled me down gently and pressed his forehead to mine.
“Best day of my life,” he whispered.
“Mine too.”
I didn’t know then that we both meant those words for very different reasons
